Monday, August 3, 2015

why oh why?

five steps forward (work days) 

count them!!! five five good days ... on track 
on point 


2 GIANT steps back (days off) 

but I do believe I have a saboteur in my midst 

add that to my weak resolve 
this is a set up for failure 

so before I do the flip out on this individual 

I am going to pack my food 
new Karla House rule 
NO eating after 7 PM 

wish me luck 

sheesh this is getting old 

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Tuesday and Wednesday

yesterday was training. I train at 5 AM for an hour... speed off home, shower and on the freeway off to work by 6:30 ... I make it but I am usually makeup free and it takes me the entire hour commute to cool down. I shower and I am clean but still hot
any whosle
I love training days... look at that beautiful Exercise column!!!
today's plan
today will be an average work day so I am curious to see the exercise at the end of the day. My Fitbit sync's with the My Fitness pal so that is cool
also a note: it is not just about the calories for my choices... it is about the food... no frozen yogurt, basically nothing other than what is on the food lists... (I put them at the top NFT) and coming home after a 12 hour day... I commute an hour each way and I work 10 hour days .... ahhhh the glamorous life of a grocery store manager .... sheesh...
oops what was I saying before I was boo hooing ....
ahhh it has helped by me figuring out something to eat when I get home... I am usually in bed by 8:30... home by 6:45 but this short time frame has always been my nemesis
okay I am back... felt silly with the other format... like I am starting over? REALLY111??? life goes on
Karla out 

Monday 7/27

this is day #2 with no coffee creamer. I am happy to report that the world has not shifted on it's axis... The stars are still in the sky. Life can go forward with no coffee creamer....
Plan for today and recap of yesterday
Yesterday's calories: 1391 kind of high but I did have an evening snack and did not binge so I am good with that
Your Daily Goal1,21076341512,30045
carbs were under 100 win! and I did good on the protein... no wonder I was cool with the evening snack, also my sugar was excellent!!!
so today:
blue diamond almonds - almond breeze almond coconut, 1 cup441311230 
Iso-100 - Hydrolyzed 100% Whey Protein Isolate Vanilla, 29.2 g1101025900 
Kroger - Quick Cook Oatmeal, 0.33 cup uncooked100182401 
Egg Whites - Large, 3 large (33 g)5110111651 
Chicken - Chicken, 4.0 oz16004131090 
Harvest Sensations - Kale Salad, 3 cup871806906 
Cabbage, raw, 1 cup, chopped22501163 
Cottage cheese - Lowfat, 2% milkfat, 0.5 cup (not packed)10242164590 
Dole - Pears, 1 cup9021011018 
Perdue - Ground Turkey Breast, 4 oz (112g)1200128550 
Broccoli - Broccoli Steamed, 2 cup60715603 
Fage - Yogurt Non-fat, 1 Cup1009023859 
Strawberries - .strawberries, 8 oz7240003 
Quest - Oreo Protein Bar, 1 bar180227213101 
Your Daily Goal1,21076341512,30045 
as you can see I am using the My Fitness Pal app 
I will recap tomorrow about today's plan and success which I know is in the bag!!! off to get ready for work in my new threads
th (1)
Karla out

I need to be careful

today I was thinking about how I DO NOT like lairs
"oh, I quit that" -----> LIE
"oh I don't do that any more" ------> LIE
but I need to also understand that this may be me!! "oh I am on this (or that) eating plan" -----> LIAR
I get the whole be kind to yourself speech, but I need to walk the talk
this got me through today
I DO NOT want to be a LIAR 
I want to be honest, especially to myself.
I went and bought some work clothes today, I needed to .... It's like this weird feeling like I need to "punish" myself and not feel good about  myself until I see a magic number on the scale...  HOOEY!!!
Today I was honest with myself and I was also nice to myself
Karla signing off

what the heck? really dang

so I reach out to my trainer
"help me I am fat"
so I ask him to send me a menu, meal plan... help
and what does he do? he sends me an email with common sense in it... what the heck?? dang
dang and then this was the opening of the email:
Before you begin opening up all my attachments, looking for that MAGIC food plan, just remind yourself, you WILL NOT move forward SUCCESSFULLY without taking a look backwards at the reasons for which you have FAILED in previous attempts. PERIOD. This first article will set you up FOR SUCCESS moving forward…TRUST ME!!!
PLEASE! PLEASE! PLEASE! Read this ENTIRE ARTICLE!! It will help get your mind right!!
double dang .,,, no magic pill? no magic wake up tomorrow size 6 diet...
what the heck??!!
okay gotta do the work
eat clean, be patient and just friggin OWN this
attached the pages I will be following ^^^^^
I hope he doesn't sue me .... lol ....
as I sit here drinking my unsweetened almond milk and protein coffee
no magic pill... really!!??
Karla out

and I am back :)

My pants are tight...
EVERY single pair
I have to drop some weight, and fast!!! yeah yeah I know that is the wrong mindset ... truthfully that has always been my problem. I want it to happen overnight and I get discouraged when it doesn't... yeah I know that is stupid.. so that's me
Clean eating is the right and ONLY way for me, but it can be hard .. I am a stress eater, bored eater.. okay I am fooling no one. I just love to eat!!! and being a grocery store manager does not help this situation! My trainer is going to help me (I think) I spoke to him Thursday and weighed and he said something about if you have trouble with consistency (ah yeah that's me!!!)  Shakes (he is into Isagenix and truthfully I am open to this at this point) so we will see
Meal planning is kind of a waste for me, as my brain isn't in the right place right now so I am not sure how to "snap back into things" so I just keep being a poser... posing and acting like I am all into clean eating as I scarf down chips at night, or buy candy at the store... sheesh girl!!!
on another note... a gal at my work signed up for some CRAZY program and it is "guaranteed" to work. If she doesn't stick to their plan 100% and doesn't lose 40 pounds by October (yes that is right 40!!!!) she has to pay them $500 ... what a err I am struggling for the right word... scam? no... she signed a contract... who knows maybe she will kick butt and show everyone her amazing success... hey what works for you, may not work for me and vice versa
Back to the work conversation ... VERY stressful right now. I feel very divided and torn between what I need to do and what I should be doing..  not the same thing sometimes. I have to prioritize and let others help me more and lean on others more. It is hard sometimes
Karla ... signing off